rotten, just rotten. had such grand plans too (sigh) after all the rambling about making a point of posting something everyday, no matter how trivial, just to get in the habit of writing more. well, you can see how it's turned out so far.
about taking things as they come, one day at a time? not too shabby actually. i think i'm doing ok there for the most part. i've never been one to get into too much of a hurry about anything to start with, so maybe this isn't such a stretch for me as it may be for some people. i don't know. i do know that i can worry just as well as anyone though, so i'm kinda proud of myself that i haven't been doing too badly about not worrying so much.
about the well. that turned out not to be such a horrible thing after all, which was nice. it wasn't the pump. so no major expense in getting the water to work again. instead it was the regulator (?) that cost all of 18 bucks. definitely a lot easier on the pocketbook! my husband figured that one out. it's a mystery to me how he could tell what was wrong. glad it was him checking it out and not me! thankfully my son in law looked it up on the internet to double check on the wiring of the thing. seems the first few attempts my husband made in getting the new one in weren't terribly successful. thank you Heath!
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
one day at a time
i'm trying a whole new mindset; at least for me. rather, i'm going to try to go back to a mindset i once had, and for one reason or another neglected.
i'm talking about taking one thing at a time. living one day at a time, dealing with problems as they come up. NOT worrying about what may happen, or worrying about things that i can't do anything about at that precise moment. pretty heady stuff.
God only gives me now. no promises for tomorrow or next week. just. this. one. moment.
which, when you think about it, that's truly fortunate for me. i don't have the power to change anything in the future, and i can't undo the past. all i can do is the best i can do at this moment. doing the best i can do at every given moment i'm sure will tax quite a bit of energy. i figure, all the energy i save by not wasting it worrying about things beyond my control will go a long way towards doing the best i can right now.
for example. a few hours ago it was discovered that the water mysteriously quit working. hmmn. we had power, which is the number one reason for not having water here. we live in the country and have a well. during any power outage stops the pump, so, no water. not the case this time. of course it's dark out, and raining. kinda hard to tell if there are any leaks along the line. can't tell if the problem is from the well house, or from the booster well house.
which means we will have to wait until tomorrow, to actually see if we can tell where the problem starts. hopefully it will be dry enough to tell if there is something like a leak involved. i hope it's not the pump. i hope it's something simple like a blown fuse that will make everything work like it's supposed to. but, no point in worrying about it now, can't change anything at the moment right?
stuff like that.
updates on another post maybe.
i'm talking about taking one thing at a time. living one day at a time, dealing with problems as they come up. NOT worrying about what may happen, or worrying about things that i can't do anything about at that precise moment. pretty heady stuff.
God only gives me now. no promises for tomorrow or next week. just. this. one. moment.
which, when you think about it, that's truly fortunate for me. i don't have the power to change anything in the future, and i can't undo the past. all i can do is the best i can do at this moment. doing the best i can do at every given moment i'm sure will tax quite a bit of energy. i figure, all the energy i save by not wasting it worrying about things beyond my control will go a long way towards doing the best i can right now.
for example. a few hours ago it was discovered that the water mysteriously quit working. hmmn. we had power, which is the number one reason for not having water here. we live in the country and have a well. during any power outage stops the pump, so, no water. not the case this time. of course it's dark out, and raining. kinda hard to tell if there are any leaks along the line. can't tell if the problem is from the well house, or from the booster well house.
which means we will have to wait until tomorrow, to actually see if we can tell where the problem starts. hopefully it will be dry enough to tell if there is something like a leak involved. i hope it's not the pump. i hope it's something simple like a blown fuse that will make everything work like it's supposed to. but, no point in worrying about it now, can't change anything at the moment right?
stuff like that.
updates on another post maybe.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
doing stuff
i've actually thawed out enough i think to attempt to do a few things today. (round of applause) it's not everyday i go out of the house, let alone the bedroom, and today just feels different.
it's sunny. warmish. i went outside. basked in the sunshine. wandered around a little. there are four acres to walk on and i might have gone...oh, maybe 100 yards or so away from the house. lovely! poked around to see how much propane is in the tank. 20%. not bad. we use wood mainly for heat with a couple little electric heaters for the bedrooms when the temps hit the teens or below. unless the power's gone out. then we don't use them, but wish we could. the stove and hot water heater are the only things that use propane which is fortunate during a power outage, and as i mentioned, wood for heating. bad side during a power outage is that the well won't work, so no water. kinda frustrating during the winter when you know you have hot water, but no access. oh well, part of living in the country.
dug around in a shed, re-discovered headboard, foot board and a bed frame. don't remember it being there, but it's been ages since i've done any wandering so to speak. after a little clean up, will bring them in and put to good use in one of the bedrooms where there is just a mattress on the floor. dunno how that happened, but will rectify while i'm feeling this unaccustomed spurt of energy. plan on taking sheets, towels, and blankets to a laundromat. the washing machine i have works fine, but the plumbing has problems and doesn't want to drain except all over the floor. not up to babysitting the washing machine today. i need to get that stuff loaded into the car before it gets much later and i'm all tuckered out. shower comes first though. right after a pain pill. that little bit of walking, and dragging stuff around is already letting me know i'm behind schedule for the pain pill. sigh. hopefully will still get the car loaded before i run out of steam again.
it's sunny. warmish. i went outside. basked in the sunshine. wandered around a little. there are four acres to walk on and i might have gone...oh, maybe 100 yards or so away from the house. lovely! poked around to see how much propane is in the tank. 20%. not bad. we use wood mainly for heat with a couple little electric heaters for the bedrooms when the temps hit the teens or below. unless the power's gone out. then we don't use them, but wish we could. the stove and hot water heater are the only things that use propane which is fortunate during a power outage, and as i mentioned, wood for heating. bad side during a power outage is that the well won't work, so no water. kinda frustrating during the winter when you know you have hot water, but no access. oh well, part of living in the country.
dug around in a shed, re-discovered headboard, foot board and a bed frame. don't remember it being there, but it's been ages since i've done any wandering so to speak. after a little clean up, will bring them in and put to good use in one of the bedrooms where there is just a mattress on the floor. dunno how that happened, but will rectify while i'm feeling this unaccustomed spurt of energy. plan on taking sheets, towels, and blankets to a laundromat. the washing machine i have works fine, but the plumbing has problems and doesn't want to drain except all over the floor. not up to babysitting the washing machine today. i need to get that stuff loaded into the car before it gets much later and i'm all tuckered out. shower comes first though. right after a pain pill. that little bit of walking, and dragging stuff around is already letting me know i'm behind schedule for the pain pill. sigh. hopefully will still get the car loaded before i run out of steam again.
Monday, January 11, 2010
last night and early this morning we began clawing our way out of the near record breaking lows we've been experiencing for the past several days. thank goodness!!! today we should crest somewhere in the 40's and into the 50's perhaps later this week. the low's of 7 and 9 caused havoc with several people's water pipes around here. fortunately we weren't one of them. the good news is that even with the really cold weather it was mostly sunny. just hard to get terribly motivated if it's grim, gray and cold outside.
like a lot of people on these blog type sites i am a frustrated writer. i've got the outline, plot and ending in my head and on paper, but the dialog and transitions between scenes and charactors are pretty awful. rats. it gets discouraging, and then i think, let's give it another shot, so i'll be writing like mad, making changes here and there and in general taking 1 step forward and about 9 or 10 back. i've got to try to quite editing the stuff and just get the whole blasted thng written, start to finish, then begin the process of editing. i know this but it's not what i end up doing. sigh.
dogs. we are overrun with them. what started out as a cute, abused abandoned puppy has morphed into generations of new puppies. we aren't responible pet owners. we haven't gotten the dog spaded and are instead drowning in more unwanted dogs. the only responsible thing we've done is keeping them up on their shots and feeding them, warm places in the winter, cooler spots in the summer with plenty of shade and water. perhaps with the children gone the tendency to 'just keep this one' out of each litter will come to an abrupt halt. we have managed to give away the bulk of the puppies, but there have been other strays who've landed here and stayed way past their welcome. at the moment there are 5 dogs and a wolf. don't ask.
like a lot of people on these blog type sites i am a frustrated writer. i've got the outline, plot and ending in my head and on paper, but the dialog and transitions between scenes and charactors are pretty awful. rats. it gets discouraging, and then i think, let's give it another shot, so i'll be writing like mad, making changes here and there and in general taking 1 step forward and about 9 or 10 back. i've got to try to quite editing the stuff and just get the whole blasted thng written, start to finish, then begin the process of editing. i know this but it's not what i end up doing. sigh.
dogs. we are overrun with them. what started out as a cute, abused abandoned puppy has morphed into generations of new puppies. we aren't responible pet owners. we haven't gotten the dog spaded and are instead drowning in more unwanted dogs. the only responsible thing we've done is keeping them up on their shots and feeding them, warm places in the winter, cooler spots in the summer with plenty of shade and water. perhaps with the children gone the tendency to 'just keep this one' out of each litter will come to an abrupt halt. we have managed to give away the bulk of the puppies, but there have been other strays who've landed here and stayed way past their welcome. at the moment there are 5 dogs and a wolf. don't ask.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
so much for relaxing...
My kids decided to have pity on me, sorta. It's been non-stop kiddoes since I started having them, which one would expect when you have 5 children. Mostly they are grown up now, and all have started having their own kids. Wonderful! I love grandkids...but I wasn't expecting everyone to move back in, lol, which it seems most of them have done including their kids. To be honest, only 3 of my 5 kids have done that, and for the most part they have been considerate enough to take turns. Sometimes the turns overlap, or are separated by days. That's when it starts to get a lil rough.
What I guess I am complaining about is, I'm looking forward to the time when it's just my husband and I in the house. I hear about women sobbing about the "empty nest" syndrome, and I wonder what their problem is...lol...are they afraid to be alone with the husband they were so crazy about in the beginning and thought they would die if they didn't marry? It just seems being a family of two again sounds so wonderful, if I really get a chance to do it before I'm drooling and forgotten who I am, let alone who I married.
Trying to keep up with the kids and their problems can be a bit of a strain, and the drooling phase looks like it's looming ever closer to reality when things get really crazy.
I feel truly fortunate that my kids feel close enough that they can confide in me, want to be with me and I don't mind sharing their hardships if it makes things a little easier for them. Most of the time. But there has to come a time when Mom and Dad get a break too, and I guess I want it right now...at least for a while.
Selfish, huh?
What I guess I am complaining about is, I'm looking forward to the time when it's just my husband and I in the house. I hear about women sobbing about the "empty nest" syndrome, and I wonder what their problem is...lol...are they afraid to be alone with the husband they were so crazy about in the beginning and thought they would die if they didn't marry? It just seems being a family of two again sounds so wonderful, if I really get a chance to do it before I'm drooling and forgotten who I am, let alone who I married.
Trying to keep up with the kids and their problems can be a bit of a strain, and the drooling phase looks like it's looming ever closer to reality when things get really crazy.
I feel truly fortunate that my kids feel close enough that they can confide in me, want to be with me and I don't mind sharing their hardships if it makes things a little easier for them. Most of the time. But there has to come a time when Mom and Dad get a break too, and I guess I want it right now...at least for a while.
Selfish, huh?
Monday, January 4, 2010
today is a beginning...
...for many things. This blog for instance. The fingers want to type, are hovering over the keyboard anxious to spell out many things but the brain, unfortunately, is lagging behind as usual. It reminds me of the start of each new year at school. All those brand new blank spiral notebooks, packages of loose leaf paper, all with so much potential. And again, the blank mind rules - only being able to follow the dictates of the days lessons instead of something uniquely and brilliantly my own. Doesn't say much for me, does it?
But, there is always the chance for change, right? Not that anything even remotely brilliant will be typed by these fingers but there is the hope that something at least semi-unique can come from them. I will keep on until I accomplish at least that much. Once I get the hang of that, perhaps an occasional flash of brilliance might accidentally sprawl itself on here. Who knows?
But, there is always the chance for change, right? Not that anything even remotely brilliant will be typed by these fingers but there is the hope that something at least semi-unique can come from them. I will keep on until I accomplish at least that much. Once I get the hang of that, perhaps an occasional flash of brilliance might accidentally sprawl itself on here. Who knows?
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